January : Choose Growth Every time : Boundaries, Revelations and Peace

 

     There are only five days left in January, and a lot has happened. One of the goals for therapy I set throughout my year-and-a-half journey was to develop a sense of self and understanding and discover my identity as Jamicah.

    The art teacher, the student, the daughter, the strong friend, the fixer, the listener, the empathizer, the lover, the sister, the fractured black woman, and baby Christian. 

    The 24-year-old's inner child held strongholds of negative thoughts and core memories of those who injured me emotionally, and I internalized them. This is the month I chose to break the pattern. I started by not making myself so accessible that you might as well have thought I ordered the Secret Service. I decided to work on my thoughts, and for the first time, I felt a real peace of mind. I wasn't being plagued by the thoughts and expectations of everyone around me. I realized I had to evolve beyond my environment, beyond my past, evolve beyond what I thought I knew. Choosing growth.